Another Marked Year

So- Sunday marked another year that I spent without my mom here with me. She died on Tuesday, October 5th 1999. Ironically, she was born on a Tuesday- December 7, 1937. Yes, for those of you who don't know, I was born on her 37th birthday. She was getting ready to go out to dinner and ....... surprise. Many birthdays were spent together. When I was younger, I remember her giving me the parties, and as I got older I remember we loved to spend out bday dinner at Red Lobster.
She died of cancer. 2 years before we found out at the last minute that she had stomach cancer and within a week they removed her stomach. We thought all was fine. Her small intestines acted as her stomach and she was already small in frame as it was. They didn't even give her any follow up treatments. But the following year, we found out it had metastisized to her liver. A place of no return. She was a trooper though. Unless you were previously told, up until the end you would have never known that she had less than 6 months to live by the way her attitude was. She lived a full year after diagnosis.

I remember she after she got sick, she and I would watch the movie "Babe"- yeah the movie with the pig. I think we both got such a kick out of a little pig so cute and so small with so much to offer. A uniquw gift. At the end of the movie we always sang the closing credit song together..
"If I had words to make a day for you, I'd give you a morning golden and new
I would make this day last for all time, give you a night deep in moonshine".

Yes Mom, I believe that all my life I was singing that song to you. I tried as hard as I could to make your days as happy as I could. I carry your spirit, your tenacity, your charisma, your ability to forgive, your people- lovin- self with me now. I hope to pass it on to you grandson. Cheese and Eggs as you call him. He is just as loud and telling people things and trying to help just as you did. (getting on people's nerves in your loving way- telling them things that they don't want to hear, but need to hear)
Yes Mom- your legacy lives on. You were the best...
I anticipate the day when I will see you again, and we can laugh together......again.....
I love you.....